InsaneJournal

Big Love, again.
Oh, I am so fond.

I just want to pat Margene and cuddle her. Oh, *sweetheart*. "I told them I'm your mistress. :D " Okay, the :D face wasn't really there, but it might as well have been.

I love this show because I don't know what the writers are thinking. I don't know what I'm 'supposed' to think, about the marriage, about any of the characters- I feel like they're just *people* with their own complications, and I really like that. It's weird- in fandom I've become so used to reading "against" the text, so I feel weird when I don't *have* to. I keep wondering if I'm reading it wrong, if there's something I'm missing. But they all just feel very... *real*. And while I have massive, massive heart for Margene, I really love them all.

I'm fascinated by Niki in particular, right now- the way she so *effortlessly* plays Margie and Barb against each other, and the way I can't even be upset at her for it because it's so clearly a survival mechanism built in by the compound. I don't think she even *thinks* about it at this point, just does it on instinct.

You can see it in Rhonda, too, even stronger, but with Rhonda it's wide and desperate and she directs it at everyone- skillfully, but without discretion. She gets caught more often, and if she doesn't refine her methods soon she's going to crash. Nikki- it's not just that she's good at it, but it also feels more closely tied in to how much she needs these people to *need* her. Rhonda just wants attention, and from everyone, but she doesn't seem concerned about whether they honestly *like* her. But Nikki needs to feel needed, and trusted, and *loved*, although she won't admit that last part so much. And she loves her family, even as she's pitting them against each other.

I wonder if Rhonda's right about Heather... I *thought* I got a ping from her in the beginning of the series, for some reason, but I wasn't sure why and just dismissed it as my habit of queering everything I watch. But maybe not. I kind of hope so. I mean, I like Alby, and even him I feel sympathetic towards- self-hating closet case in a super-religious compound whose father didn't give a damn that someone tried to poison him? Yeah, you've got ample reason to be fucked up. Still- even though the show's got a *lot* of cred with me... not so keen on Yet Another Evil Vaguely Gay Guy. It would be nice to have a non-creepy queer, and Heather's a darling.

Um. Still want to write more things! About stuff! But. Later.

ALSO. And randomly. I have only seen a scattered handful of BSG episodes past season one, but we seem to keep hitting ones that are hitting weird buttons for me, and I don't know if this is because I'm seeing them in isolation and should watch the rest to get context or whether I should avoid at all costs. Also, I am deeply bothered by the appearance of Ray Kowalski and Al Calavicci. It's giving me fannish whiplash. I keep expecting Sam to leap into a guard or something and fix the Cylon problem, as well as learning a Valuable Lesson.

...damn, now I want to watch Quantum Leap.

hi i kind of slept through IBARW because i suck. i will post things, i swear.